[..I'm BACK!..]

TheSpoke is under maintenance that is why I returned here to blog , of course i won't ever neglect here because this is where I have learned to love blogging.

How are you friends?. I'm ok as I always be. Hmmm I am so sad because my BF is not here in davao and might go back here next week. You know how I miss him a lot, for so many weeks we didn't see each other. I know how he understands me but I will do everything we've missed.

This is my second blog do visit it if time allows. I'm still looking for a URL Redirector can you give me one?.

Today, I am here alone in the office. While studying my subject for our exam tomorrow I peek a little time to blog. Hmmm I only noticed right at this moment that our office surrounds with classic songs *turns other station*.

[..time to fix..]

I need time to fix everything. What I am trying to say is, I will be Away From Blogging for weeks starting this day.

[..CorelWORLD Davao Event..]

Sorry for the late post about the COREL DAVAO EVENT 2004 held at NCCC Mall last October 9-10, 2004. The said event was very great because of the participation of other schools and UIC is one of the major sponsors. It was started with an opening talks with some of the elite Corel Designers of the Phillipines and there's an on-the-spot logo design contest for individual caterogy and group caterogy.

We were so very lucky because our school (UIC) shells out much effort along with the cooperation of the ITE program officers and of course with our dear Program Dean. SOme of our students also exposed their talents in gfx designing and we have showcased at lot of it.

Pboz , a UIC student recognized by Corel Company as one of the Best Gfx Artists. Only two persons got this award, one is from the other school.

Continuation later.

[..Apollo..]

Apollo has been a nice person to me. We just met along the way when we get the chance of knowing a bit. I was very delighted because Apollo possesses a very humble attitude and so kind to me.

Last time, we met was the time I knew who Apollo is. He even trying to piss me off because of other reasons, but I just tend to ignore it and you know listening to the words Apollo is uttered is like letting Apollo all the time to express what Apollo feels.

Apollo is so nice if you take time for yourself knowing Apollo.

Trust me Apollo, I know you will go a long long way with your life. Just remember that what matters is how you win not how you lose. Take yourself as a winner always and I know that will give you peace of mind.

Just be true. Follow what you think you deserve, and of course God is always there for you and I’m just right here watching over you.

Btw, Apollo is my VIRTUAL FRIEND.

[..Because of you..]

I had a very terrible things happened to me yesterday because:

First, I forgot to answer my bf’s call in my cellphone. He called for 4 times just to inform me he’s waiting outside the gate. I was so very guilty knowing I strongly allowed him to come to school and see me and yet he waited for so long in there.

Second, I left my cellphone at the office gezzz! for the first time I ignored its absence in my bag that night.

Third, areman and I waited to fetch a jeepney for my way home not knowing that very hour is the appearance of sales ladies and salesmen and other maintenance employees so I ended up taking a taxi ride.

So why these things happen? If you would try to read my previous posts you will know the reasons.

I really loathe jeepneys stealing time refilling gasoline in a station, because I hate feeling warmed after my hair playing in the air.

*sigh* I have coped up after all the times of feeling bothered. At last, questions now are left answered.

You see, how me and my sister’s silence knocks off for almost 3months now. It is not because I am boosting my pride more not to talk to her but because I am giving her the time to think for herself.

I can’t think of any things against her. I respect her decision and that will give her maybe a peace of mind. For me, I forgave her and I regretted what I did too.

I feel like going back to do a second version for my website but for now I am looking for web hosting site that costs cheap.

A very friend of mine, took a very long way with his career. Well, good luck and keep on rockin’ because money matters (as what you’ve said).

At last, Areman updated his blog. You see how he posted things about me. Bahahaha.

What else? *raise eyebrow*

[..Would you care?..]

listen for just a short while?

[..taking time to realize helps..]

One day more to go it’s Corel 12 Product Launching to be held at the Mall. WE will be showcasing some artworks done by my students and yes I am the facilitator of the said event for ITE program of UIC. Taking this responsibility is so tough since in the first place I don’t have classes in ITE place most are from other planet. I know I can do this, it’s my 6th month being a specie in this institution but at least as far as I know I have changed my lifestyle and of course I am happy with my present work.


Students are hard to convince the fact that they are somewhat close-minded to this stuffs and that. I know there are lots of students who are capable of blasting out their talents but you know projects in their subjects sometimes flunk doing some pieces. I don’t want to force them to shell out efforts for these purpose I want them to realize and see from them that what i did is something that is once in a lifetime exposure (at least they could know how does it feel divulging their works outside.)

I still thank God for helping me with this because I was about to give up due to some undeniable circumstances, but my ideas and concerns work after all.

Last night I had an informative conversation with pixelcatalyst over YIM. He’s my mentor during my college and yes I ignored the chances he gave us in engaging IT related stuffs. I took up computer science because I want to see myself in a cubicle facing a computer and do some stuffs with it. I ‘d never even tried to think to teach because i really do hate teaching. But, you know I can’t traverse God lead me to this place where I am holding a marker, writing on the whiteboard and do some blah blah in front of smiling pink ladies. Yeah I am facing lots of computers (more than I have expected to have only one EXCLUSIVE only for me), and yet someone owns each of those. I don’t even own mine in our office, except with my sleeping-for-many-months-PC at home.

Let’s go back to the talks I had with my great mentor. Why great? Because he taught me so much things to realize how important being a comsci product. He wants me to grow doing programming because that’s one of the jobs an IT product should do. You see how I changed, but along with it is the regret of neglecting my jobs as a comsci student in which to do simple to complex programming. I didn’t even know how to program of adding and deleting records after my graduation. Within two-month summer I studied Turbo C/C++ and guess what I was only producing output in my imagination because purchasing a computer for me is impossible that time. When i tried to apply for a job, I often went to my friend’s house and apply of what I have learned from a TURBO C/C++ book . Obviously producing so much errors is normal. I was trying to fix them and in the end I am somewhat learned that it causes too much headache.. I acquire things about that PL more than my 4 year being taught in college.

More of this later.. I have to take my lunch.

[..Quick and Dirty Operating System..]

Hmmm I'm just trying to remember that MSDOS was once QDOS. You could see how Bill Gates gives assurance to MITS the makers of ALTAIR 8080 that He and Paul were already developed a certain OS which was BASIC designed for ALTAIR 8080, knowing they didn't even have a single line of code about it. Because of the fact he lied, it helped... gaining big bucks from it.

[..thought about giving up..]

As I wake up this morning there's a thing that suddenly hit my mind. I feel like I'm giving up of understanding my life and dealing with people. It's not that I'm going to commit suicide but I need myself a big break to fix everything.

and yes, another mistake I did yesterday. I assure God that I will be attending mass but because my dysmenorrhea strikes and made me so drained and so awful so I decided not to go to mass.

I know this is a very stupid reason knowing I have neglecting God's favor for so many times. Maybe he tested me of feeling painful that day for me how long my faith is for Him, but I gave up staying at home whole day and night.

Damn! before I went to sleep I said "Lord, I am so ashame with myself. I am bad and punish me if you want".

Just this morning I thought of giving up my boyfriend because I see how he sacrifices and understands my stupidity but then again God gave me time to think more about it. As I prepared what to say to my bf I ended up of holding still with our relationship coz I think that the only treasure that I should keep.



so confused.. so bothered.. so stupid.

[..stupid-girl..]

I don't know why until now the "ex" of my BF lurks him.

*to the girl* Hmmm why not look for other guy? It seems you're loosing men .... or you may sashay your face on the wall.