-=Breelee.Inside.Out=-

a simple girl with simple wants in life

9.29.2004

[..so hard..]


As a beginner it's so hard to gather people's attention to view your blog. In my case, I got more or less 5 new visitors a day, the worst is 1 new visitor.

Well anyway, whoever tries to view my page and even gives time to read. I hope you enjoy reading and perhaps you can feel something deep down in me that I'm somewhat a bit ardent.

It doesn't matter how many of them seeing this, what's the important for me is I acknowledge blogger.com so much for providing free blogsites.

My stomach aches I don't know why? :(


9.28.2004

[..Identity theft..]

Identity theft. Let us first define these words.

“Identity Theft, also known as identity fraud, involves somebody obtaining and using your personal data, such as your name, address, telephone number, phone card and credit card number, mother’s maiden name. The identity theft usually intends to obtain goods and services in your name, and to ultimately leave you with the bill.”

It simply means someone who deceives on your personal information especially online. We all know that most internet users and other online transactions users are relying on using their online personal information for managing online processes for individual’s needs, because of the fact that these people are often dependent on the tough security measure that a certain business company is upholding to. But of course, in the world of cyberspace, there is such thing as evil.

So, let me give you more understanding about this activity. A person who is knowledgeable on tinkering online user information such as SSS number, Credit Number, Bank Account Number and etc, might lead your individuality go astray. They may even change some information you have not just use them.

If you’re involve with a well-established credit history they can still track your records and use some of your credit card numbers by lurking those unauthorized access done by the thieves. You as the card owner must be on guard on every activity that you do.

Identity theft also does not only target those with well-entrenched credit histories. They also target those who may not have much credit such as college students and set up fake accounts in their names, because they don’t usually monitor their accounts.

Identity theft also targets businesses. Especially applying for credit, a business may discover that the certain applicant has a history of nonpayment of bills in which run up by the identity theft. This means that the business now will deny the application unless it clears up the significant financial obligations.

The identity thief usually steals other people’s identity and make purchases, apply for credit and open bank accounts. These activities, a thief may forge checks and bank drafts and transfer big money using the victim’s accounts without victim’s knowing.

With these, if a person is being rankled by an identity theft he may possibly be engaged with unknown money transfers and purchases and online orders and he ended up with a question “How come?”.

Yeah, how come an anonymous did all these where in fact you only knew my secret numbers of all these credit cards you have? Well, the answer for that is someone is much wiser than you.




Well, this is my assignment by the way.

9.26.2004

[..My dreams.]

Me and my sister don't talk much for more than a month now since we had silly arguments, and just last friday night I had a very very bad dream.

The dream was viewing from our house and there flashing the scene of my sister inside the coffin. She died because of Leukemia. My parents and my younger sister mourning, but except me. I was just standing beside the coffin and look at her and told to myself, "I have forgave you and please forgive me". After which, I went to my seat and suddenly my bf approached me and asked if I am ok. I was just simply answered "It's too late to tell her that I'm really really sorry".

That was it. That's all I can remember. And yet still now we don't talk to each other much.


Last night, I also had this dream in which it showed over the top of a mountain (in where I stood). There comes the loud voice of God saying "Satan, get out of this place! bring all your people into your world!" I was shocked because I was the only person that time and wondering where the other people are.

And when I looked down, I saw a wide ocean and there lived some of the humans inside their houses (houses reside in the sea),and satan took all the people as well as the houses by a strong wind blows,and they're gone.

He never took me, and God said. From this moment on another generation will emerge and for those who remained will be my people and continue to live for the next generation.

I was delighted and can't say words how I felt. I went down the mountain if by chance I can meet other people than me, so there in the cave I saw some people hiding (whom I don't know them), and telling me, "God said to go to this place during his judgement day".

Whoah! My cellphone alarmed and my dream ended.

This is the second time where I dreamt about God. The first one was.

While walking in a foggy hallway, there in the room at my left side the door was opened and I saw an altar. I walked in and somebody instructed me to take off my sandals. I took them off and slowly approaching the altar( big crucifix), and kneel and pray. It was a very cold place and so very cloudy.

It was a place in HEAVEN.

So weird huh?

9.21.2004

[..Pinoy 3D Artists..]

Since I'm posting some foreign amazing web and art pieces online. It's time to recognize and make big hands to KgGraphics | RayTraceStudios | Ezekiel |TheWipe| who are creators of 3D artworks. Take note some of them are Pinoy.

Aren't you proud of them?

9.20.2004

[..David Blaine..]

Correct me with my spelling about the name of that guy.

On my way to the lobby, someone came across me and ask for some two peso coins. So I asked him "for what?" and he said "just to show you shpw you something miss". Then I picked 2 peso coins and gave them to him. He rubbed the coin on his each hand and do some tinkering for seconds. He asked me to choose where to open his hand to see what's inside of it. It was gone. Whoah! I was speechless at first and my mind quickly remembers about David Blaine, then I uttered " Ah ok!".

He never contented he pulled out his cards. And he asked me to pick one and hide it letting him not to see the number and character do the card have. So, he scrumbled the cards and he took silence, closing his eyes for seconds and saying the answer of the card's number and character. I slowly looking at the cards and He got it right!. Whoah! I was shocked.

There are many things he performed and I ended up with a question "How'd he do that?"


Well, I don't know. *grin*

[..Failure comes..]

Hmmm I ignored something here coz I really thought only a friend of mine could comment my blog but you know I'm so glad because somebody out there takes his time on pumping and made some statements in my blog. Thank you so much for that.

I read all your comments and I really appreciate those.

Sometimes, I cannot understand why there are neurons on my brains that tell me what to do. Yeah, brain does the decision and brain leads you ways for you to follow.

I could not find any reasons why, there are times that I failed to do things in which should taking care of. I sometimes failed to do my service for God.

I used to say "I'll go to mass and that's a promise Lord" and when the day came I failed to do it, because I felt tired and that made as an excuse every time.

I read a statement in the bible (in which I forgot the verse), that pertains to Promises. That we should not make promises to God and don't try to test him..blah blah. you should do your promises in the name of Him and please don't break your promises etc..

You see I cannot even put the complete statement here. That's all I have remembered.

9.13.2004

[..bump it away..]

Set aside your things and take a quick look with drummachine, that truly provides you a best viewing pleasure... for seconds?

and oh! don't forget to boost your volume up high...

[..if you care..]

If you patienlty reading my emotional stuffs here and you may be asking what happened next after the argument we had with my Bf. I posted it but deleted it right away. Just realizing something that I think some things need to keep privately.

Well, we're ok now and we still moving on. We both love each other and I think that's the important thing to consider..... against all odds.

Hmm. I am thinking if I am forgetting my job, since I am more ah focused on my blogs and the Outpost Forum. Nah!, I owe my willingness in putting up this blogs from pixelcatalyst.
You know . I gotta keep rockin' baby!

[..reborn..]

I came across with this site levi501reborn. But I don't like wearing their products. It's not that because of the expensive prices but with the fit it may brought me if I use it. I'm not sexy you know.

See how Love Changes. Hmmm what's the connection? Well, just learned to love your work and that's it.

Oh! why not join in Video Chat. This is pretty amazing, seeing how your chatmates look like, or you might as well hide your identity by creating 3D Fido Dido. Hehehe Take it from here.

9.09.2004

[..we never talk..]

Me and my BF never talked since the day we had an argument about the very shallow thing (because Of me), He's just sent me a 20K sized email this morning expressing his hurt feelings etc. he told me to talk these things personally if I have a free time I will just tell him when, for the first time he said that. He used to set up a date to talk and fix things straight.

I didn't reply because we need to talk. I just texted him that I already read his email etc. and after that we don't text anymore in the whole afternoon. I need his first hit to me to talk before I gave my way to talk about it.

You know how much I miss my BF's voice and text everyday. But now Im taking the risks to lower down my pride and pray.


















*cries* the truth is I don't know what to do

[..-----..]

You see How i can't formulate a title for this post. My BF told me to reflect but I can't make myself renew fully out of the reflections I made. One word I said generates more stupid reactions and I am hurting them every moment. Maybe I don't think of the right words to say Im just too frank about my feelings and that's it. If I feel stupid I bursted out like I don't care about the world. Can a sincere SORRY heals?

[..Reflections..]

I caught myself lonely facing infront of this computer thinking of so many things. There is something that fretting inside me that i do not know. I have taught myself to work on my own but still there are undeniable disturbances in me.

I came to a point when I don't think so much of my parents' worries about me because I think this is my life always. God gave me this and I have to accept whatever circumstances that may bring.

I can't imagine my BF surrenders his self not to understands me more about my attitudes. He raises his white flag because I brought so much absurb reactions between us. I begun to poison our relationship this time and I don't know why?

You see how me and sister's silent treatment went longer now. 1 more week to go we will be celebrating a month of it. But whenever I tried to give my attention or talk to her, she remained silent as if she hears nothing. Do you think she's boosting up her pride? What do you think I should do?

I'm stupid maybe because I am doing silly things out of my control. I'm self-centered, egotistical, SELFISH that is the right word. But I don't know I'm so bothered and so confused.

I don't know where to turn to. My BF starts making his self silent for the mean time to relieve before moving on. He loves me I know that but it seems I am not good anymore to do things to make our relationship more healthy. I am making it weak.

I admit I am so stupid. You see how I take my friends before. They are gone and I don't need them because I am so confident to have my BF who knows me more in and out.

Friends, I don't want to talk with people now. Im just thankful I have this blogs of mine to freely burst out everything and I hope you there guys can at least know and hopefully you will understand me even just a little bit. More later

9.07.2004

[..kick-a*s..]

A whooping VFS-a*s Design Studio from DerekProspero. It's really different being inspired.

[..lost humans in the sky..]

I am surrounded by inspiration. Take Orthographic as an example.

Hey! There are lost humans soaring up high. Can you see them? Oh! I saw Bill Bussey.

9.05.2004

[..A night to remember..]

Last Friday was our 1year and 4th monthsarry with my BF. I didn't expect that he got a surprise gift to me that time. He brought me to a prestigious hotel in Davao and had a dinner date for two. So sweet and I was not in the nice outfit that time coz I was just wearing T-shirt and pants. That was a memorable night to remember. I am so touched because for the first time someone earned big bucks just for that dinner date. Love you bibi. muah muah.

9.02.2004

[..illusion..]

Take this illusion of yours. I got this link from pixelcatalyst.

[..if given a chance..]

Ei guys! I have a question for you. If given a chance to be invited by Bill Gates cont..

[..our day today..]

It's our 1 year and 4 monthsarry with my boyfriend, and we will be having a dinner date tonight. *sigh* i just love him so much as he loves me. Oh! in case you don't know guys do read my first and
second blogsites. This is my third and final blogsite for now. brb

*headache*

[..need not..]

In this world, there exist different people in different countries and in different situations and in different opinions, and perhaps whatever my opinion is that's my point and you can do nothing about it, and hey! I just knew your blog just at the moment you bugged me. Well anyway, thnx for the kind prompting me coz you can do nothing of whatever things I'm talking about. It's just like we can't control the mouth of a nagger (oh yeah am I?).

I have a severe headache today, grrrrr I hate this. once my head aches my body fell into being idle and napping all day. It's unbearable. I don't take medicine I know it will be over soon or maybe on next day.

We chatted pixelcatalyst over YIM about going myself back to programming, and I have yelling out about the stupid day I have yesterday. Well, I'm glad he remained calm. Say Hi to nizzy I miss her so much. :)

[..Why do I care?..]

Oh yes! Why do I care? and Why care bugging me? I'm not saying generally these people are stupid-enough-to-talk-about-love I'm appreciating it but to the extend of knowing he/she is bursting like evil always is not good.

[..Feelin' so stupid..]

Today is very bad day! I feel so stupid of those people who are not sincere in their appointments. They kept on assuring you of when to give this and when to come over and when to call etc. and when the specified sun rises, all you can hear and see is "silence".

Sorry, but I'm just frank to tell these persons that I've got the answers Why there are clients affected and won't stay long with them. Well, anyway who cares? We have 80 million total population in the country and we can easily replaced them right?

So stupid to face with them.

9.01.2004

[..Bugging in me..]

I have read some of the blogs that talk about their boyfriends and girlfriends. I don't know why these people have nothing to discuss about since in the first place I don't know-and-care-the-hell-about their gfs and bfs. I know this is somewhat a daily journal for every individual but, at least I can get any lesson or any inspiring words from her/his blogs. All i read are all about her/his rants and even those f*ck, ass****, p*ta etc words that really discouraged me more. At least they could decrypt the word for readers comment purposes right?


Well anyway, Why should I care? *sigh*.


I still keep on carrying heavy weight on my shoulder,. I don't know if God punishes me these days for all the wrong things I did and for all the promises I broke to Him. I don't know if I should be thankful or not knowing there are many things bugging my mind. I even came to a point of waking up at exactly 3am for no apparent reasons why?

Maybe I need to talk to God. I know how I terribly disobey him for some time. I don't know if this thing is the sign to bring back my attention to Him coz it seems I'm away from Him.

I don't know friend why? there are things really bugging me and Im confused now. I don't understand even though I always tried.